Well I have officially been home for 36 hours. Let me be honest, it hasn't been smooth sailing. Turns out that things have changed and gone on without me while I have been gone and it seems that there really isn't a spot left for me here. My room has become the dumping ground for unwanted stuff, my spot in the bathroom has become my brother's shaving station and it seems I have become an inconvenience.
Everyone has their lives and their routines and I am somehow supposed to fit back in. There are many strong emotions in this household that I had forgotten about. Personalities are clashing and there is a struggle for power and control. Being home is nothing like being at school. At school there is always someone around to hang out; you can't go anywhere without seeing someone you know. Being home you don't know anyone and the closest friend is 30 mins away, not to mention most people are either in summer school or working at camp.
I am left with the incredible task of unpacking school stuff into categories of things going back to school, things going abroad and things staying home. I am also working full time and trying to catch up with friends before I leave again. It is an emotional journey.
Leaving school was an emotional challenge and now turns out being home is another challenge in itself. But the good news is that it is only 6 weeks and then another big challenge will come. And I know that as hard and annoying as things are now, I know one day I will miss it. So I guess I should appreciate it while I have it.
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