Valentine's Day: Every Day?

     Valentine's Day is a great concept, it gives people an excuse to go do things together but there is way too much hype and expectation for it. It sets people up for the excitement and then leaves them feeling broken and crushed when no one is around to do anything for them. Valentine's Day has just become a huge commercial holiday where stores get to sell a bunch of crap because people are expected to buy it.
      I believe that life is too short not to tell people that you love and appreciate them.  People need to know that there are people out there that love and care about them. It is a part of human nature, we have this need for love and acceptance so tell the people you love that you love them! Don't wait for Valentine's day to do something special for someone.
      If you love someone tell them! Life is about taking risks! Just do it; you never know what could happen!

Cross Roads

        In life there are times when you come to a cross road or a fork in the road with many options of what to do next. Sometimes those roads are familiar and tempting because you know what it would be like to go down that road. Other times the roads are scary and dark and you don't know what it would be like to go down there. Choosing where to go can be stressful sometimes because the decisions you make and the roads you choose can effect the rest of your life. Sometimes all roads seem best, sometimes all roads seem awful, or other times it is really easy to choose where to go.
        The problem is how do you know what road to choose? How do you know what is the best way to steer your life? I know you have to surrender it to God and let him steer your life but how do you know what he is telling you? I think this is something that people struggle with all the time, but what do you do about it?

Break Down

       Sometimes you  just have those days when it is all you can do to hold back tears. You know those days when you are so stressed you have mini panic attacks all day long. When you have to hold yourself together so you don't break down in the middle of campus. The only way to get through these times is to surrender to God and this is so hard to do. You have to continually keep surrendering your problem.
        Sometimes you just have to confide in a friend, have a good cry then have them tell you it is going to be okay and then you pick yourself up and keep going. Sometimes the people that look like they have it all together are the ones that really don't.  I have a friend that continually tells me I am one of the "cool" kids, because I know a lot of people, but just because you know a lot of people doesn't mean they are there for you like a friend. Sometimes I just want to look at him and say "Wake up! I am not okay!" Be there for your friends; sometimes all they need is to know you are there for them if they need you.

Where Do I Belong?

        If I fell off a cliff I am pretty sure no one would know for a while. I don't mean that in a feel sorry for me type of way, it is just how things are at this point. I am so lost; I don't know where my niche is. For some stupid reason I can't find that place where I feel like I belong. I always feel like the after thought; you were our last resort so we invited you. This whole situation is so aggravating to me because I am not like this naturally. I am not afraid to talk to people. I am confident most of the time. Making friends has never been something I have struggled with before.
       I am mad at myself for being upset about this because in the grand scheme of things it is not that big of a deal. There are people out there that are dying, people with disease, people having financial problems, people with serious problems and I am over here whining that I am lonely. It is stupid I know. I need to just suck it up and move on with life. But at the same time, is this how I am supposed to live life? Is it supposed to be this way? I am not sure anymore, I am stuck in this cycle of what to think and do.
       I have become almost numb. Yet I don't want to tell people how I feel because that is desperate and   I don't want people to hang out with me out of pity. I question if this is really the right place for me. But how do I know what is? I don't want to go somewhere else and be even more upset and then not be able to come back because I lost all my scholarships. How do you find where you are supposed to be?