Thankful

      This whole thanksgiving season has really made me stop and think about how good I have it. I know I complain sometimes and go off about how I wish things could be different, but deep down I am thankful for where I am. I have had a pretty good life. I have two parents that love me and that are sacrificing so much to put me through college and I couldn't thank them enough. Things could be way worse than they are. I don't always stop and appreciate how good I have it.

What Ifs

     We all have those things we wish we could do differently. Whether it be we wish we had done something we didn't, or we wish we could take back, or we wish we could just go back and relive a moment and do it differently. Some of us have those things we hope to God no one finds out about. Those things we tuck away inside and hope that go away. Some have those things that haunt us and we pray they will go away forever. But is it us keeping them around?
       This week in particular I have thought a lot about how my life would have been very very different had I not gone to college. Sometimes I wish it could be that way, other times I am really thankful that it worked out the way that it did. But there is always that thought in the back of my mind of all the what ifs. I just have to trust God that he knows what he is doing and as long as I listen to him and follow his plan and not my own, things will work out for the best, regardless of what I think is best.

Missing Out

     That moment when you feel like you missed out on something because you were too scared to put yourself out there. Sometimes we are too scared and worried about how we will look or what people will think of us that we forget to just let go and put ourselves out there. Sometimes it is worth the risk of looking like a fool in order to get something really special, or experiencing something awesome. How different would our lives be if we weren't afraid of how we looked and we just let go and had fun and were ourselves?

Confessions of a College Student

        My biggest fear as a college student is that I will not end up getting a job or use my degree. I am scared that I will have spent all this time and money and then not end up using that education. What if I get desperate to pay the bills right out of school and take a job that doesn't get me anywhere and I get stuck there. If you don't have experience most places won't higher you. It is almost like you need experience to get experience. It can be a vicious cycle. I don't want to feel sad and lost the rest of my life. I don't want to dread going to work; I want to enjoy what I am doing.
      There is so much riding on this, so much time and money. So many people believe in me; I don't want to let them down, especially my parents. I want to be able to make something out of myself, something that people will look up to.

Thanksgiving Blues

     This week before thanksgiving has been rough. I slept through a class and missed a quiz that I can't make up. I didn't do so well on another test that I should have done well on. I have been scatter brained and forgetting things. I have been an absolute mess. I have been needing to do laundry but haven't been able to find a time when there are free washers. I have a lot of cleaning to do before I leave too. All I can think about is going home and eating real food! I have been living off coffee and borrowed sleep.  This is a well needed break.

Connections

      One thing that has really amazed me about college so far is how many people I have met that know other people I know. So many connections are being made and have been made it is weird. I will meet someone totally random and later find out they know someone that I know from somewhere else.  It is the weirdest thing. The world is so big, yet so very small. It is fun to see all the connections and see how paths cross.

Tis The Season

       It is this time of year that makes me miss home most of all. Fall is my favorite season of all time. I love the leaves that change colors and fall covering the ground. I love the cool crisp air, the boots, scarves and sweaters. I love drinking coffee and apple cider, pumpkin pie, football, snuggling in bed. I love going to the pumpkin patch and corn maze. I love watching Charlie Brown with my mom. I love the atmosphere and the spirit it puts you in, the joy you feel in your soul. I love that everyone becomes grateful and they embrace their friends and family. It is the way this season makes you feel; just makes me miss home.