High School Safety Net

      Sometimes I wish I could go back and never leave high school. As much as I hated it, there is something warm and welcoming about it. Something that is familiar that invites you to stay and reminisce about the good times. High school is a hard time in life, it is a fish tank, where everyone looks at you and knows your business. Yet somehow there are always those that no one really knows anything about and they seem to just slip through the cracks. You try to stay "cool" in the social scene, keep up with your homework, projects, and studying, all while balancing extra-curricular activities.          

      Some nights everything is just so overwhelming you just want to kill yourself. Being a teenager can really suck sometimes, hormones raging, confused about life and what you should do. Things can get complicated. Yet why? Who to take to the latest banquet doesn't have to be such a dramatic subject. Yet somehow it always was. Boys, friends, family, school, it all got busy and crazy. There was always so much to do, I would want to shut my brain off. 

        There are some things I will really miss about high school, the events, the friends, the memories, but there are something that I really won't, the drama, the crazy schedules, the stress. Why is it always that when we have something we are so willing to give it away and when we don't have it anymore we want nothing more than to have it back?